2 and 1/2 months.
It’s crazy how fast time flies when life flips your world upside down. She always warned me as a child to stop wishing my time away and how as I would get older the years would fly by. I just couldn’t wait until the next year so I could be better, older, wiser, smarter, stronger, independent essentially. . . more like her. Funny, now in the past 80 days I’ve just strived to be as strong as she was while trying to water the seeds of service and faith she planted in me before I could even realize what she was doing. I won’t lie its hard man. Because while trying to simply keep my head above water in this new reality I’ve seemed to have somehow stumbled upon I keep looking down to make sure that I’m still moving to stay above water. Because to be quite honest. . . I’m numb. I can see all my limbs moving, I can hear my heart beating at a steady pace but I can’t really say that I’m operating this body or if any of this is actually any of my own doing. It seems as though before I checked out- my body went into the Fight or Flight Mode and I made sure to switch into Fight mode but under the autopilot. Read More